Going back

This week’s meditation starting moving in good steps; before I went to meditate I knew that I had a lot of work I needed to do, both that night and for the rest of the week. I was starting to get frustrated and stressed out, and eventually I said, “I just need to go meditate.” This is interesting because I feel that most other people who are giving meditation a try find it hard to meditate because they don’t have time to do it, they are too busy. But I think that is exactly what meditation can be good for. Clear your thoughts, take your mind off of your tasks that you need to do and just focus, clear your mind out. After meditation I find myself thinking more clearly, I can keep my naturally ADD mind on a single topic instead of having to constantly go through episodes where I think about 10 things at once, which will most likely give you a headache. As I meditated today I reflected on many things, I cleaned out the ‘trash can’ of my mind. As I meditate I continue to remind myself of things that I used to love to do so much. I went back to my summer after freshman year of GC, and I remembered how much I loved to go down to the tree-filled creek by my Illinois farmhouse. Shady Groove is what I called it, and I remember how peaceful it was down there. I remembered how much I love to get on rooftops. I remembered how nice it is to lie down in the grass. I remembered that frustration and stress is something that you create for yourself, and you can just as easily get rid of it. So meditation is continuing to be an enriching experience for me, I look forward to doing it again next week.

Revisiting

This week for my meditation I decided to revisit my last meditation location because I was happy with the results from the previous experience. This session started off very well, I'm beginning to fall into the state of relaxation faster and faster each time. I feel that it is becoming pretty obvious that the more you do it, and the more effort you put into it, the better it will be each time. I thought many thoughts, classes, friends, nature, bicycles, SST. The mind is a like a library of millions of free flying thoughts, thoughts which fly randomly in a pattern. I eventually started concentration on beauty. What is beauty? What do I think of when I think of beauty? What do others think of? There are many different kinds of beauty in the world. A person can be described as beautiful, and a mountain can be described as beautiful. However, those are two different kinds of beauty, they describe different things, they define different realities.
After a while I started to think about relationships, relationships I have with the people I know, and relationships that other people have with others. No relationship is the same, a relationship holds an incredulous number of elements that will never be able to be put into words of description, relationships are beautiful.
I left my meditation slightly early this week. I left this meditation with many questions, questions that I wanted to be answered. In a sense it almost troubled me. I thought about how we overcome troubles as I rode my bike back to my room. Again it was peaceful.

Getting off my feet

It has been about 2 weeks since I first mediated. My last session went very well in comparison to the previous one. I still find it quite ironic that the semester that I start mediating is the same semester that I have a class that basically requires it (The first time I meditated was the day before it was given as an assignment in class). I guess I'm not complaining.

This week I decided to go somewhere on campus that was really special to me, a place where I have previously gone to when I need to think. I call it my 'favorite spot.' Needless to say this helped me out a great deal. Not only was I inspired to relax and enjoy the environment around me, but it also helped me in the sense that I was less conscious of being disturbed by other people. I tried not to think of time, I didn't want to be timing myself, I simply wanted to meditate.

During the time I spent meditating I focused on my posture and my breathing. Thousands of thoughts raced through my head, everything seemed random. I felt at peace. After I was done I felt great, I was calm. I rode my bike home only to find out how much I love riding my bicycle at night, its the most peaceful thing. I was in a great mood, I was relaxed, and my thoughts were so much more organized and focused. I really had a positive experience with my last meditation session, this is something that I wish I had been doing for years.